I remembered what I was going to write.
Then I heard a sound like someone was in the house but it didn’t worry me because it was a sound like Natalie would make in the afternoon..only then did I realize that no one could be here because she is now far away…and I wondered if it was confabulation or some mind trick?
But I remembered.
I have been noticing lately that my muscle bulk is quite reduced.
Not much more than that except to say that I did NOT expect this.
I stayed firm long enough to think I had it nailed.
And then I started to feel soft.
At first I was in love with the soft way my skin felt. The bumps on the back of my arms were gone. I chalked it up to a benefit of old(er) age. But that was superficial. Deeper still was the next thing I noticed – how bony I had become. Get this straight: I am still a big girl. But I have angles I didn’t expect.
My up top. My hands look ancient yet my fingers are puffy. My fore-arms are kinda tight but then I have to consider whether or not it is more that my biceps are comparatively small.
The shoulders are bony. No deltoids left. When I was a teen I hated my bulky shoulders. Now I know it was just muscle that I possessed.